Discontent - Part 1

 So I changed the purpose of this blog.  Why?  I had a feeling that maybe I was more than just a baker.  I think I started the original blog because I wanted to be more than a mom.  Hmm...

I began thinking about what I would write about to begin the "change over".  I thought about different political issues, current events, homeschooling ideas, homeschooling concerns, issues about social morality, social injustice, etc...  I thought about all my feelings on many of these issues and found that they were all very negative and even hopeless.  I thought about the news and when I watch it, 99% of it is about murders, scandals, rape, deaths, bad decisions made by individuals, danger to people, the earth, the universe.  I began to see how discontented I am with not only my own life, but the life around me.  Where is the hope?  Where is the joy?

All of sudden, I was back in college (yes, that was a long time ago!).  I remember watching all the students rushing to class.  They were in such a hurry, they missed the lilacs that were in bloom, the smell of the fresh grass, the bright spring sunshine, and the beautiful blue sky.  I asked God at that moment to never let me be in such a hurry that I didn't take the time to take a deep breath and smell the roses as the saying goes.  Then I was brought to present and recalled the verse I am currently asking the kids to memorize.  Rom 15:13 "May the God of Hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."  Where had my joy and peace gone?  Where is my hope?

Now, I'm sure the extreme cold and the fact that I have officially hibernated until the temperature is consistently above 0 does not help the level of discontent in my life.  Someone will no doubt recommend taking some vitamin D or some time under a sun lamp.  I was thinking a trip to somewhere warm, but since the finances won't allow that, I will try to come up with ideas that will bring some joy, peace and hope into this house and thus into this blog.  Maybe a trip into Ecclesiastics?

Wish me luck!